Recently I was tasked with answering the question why I write. It’s a question often asked of writers; I’ve answered it more than once, usually in just a few simple words.
The truth? Writing is part of who am I. It’s what I do. It’s how I breathe. That may sound dramatic or romantic, but the reality is, it’s not always easy.
Writing is the reason I get up in the morning. It’s what I do at night in my head while I’m falling asleep. It works its way into my dreams. I often find myself adding saidisms in my head to real-life conversations. Do I like you? You may inspire a hero. Piss me off? You may inspire a villain. The whole world is a story; we’re all characters, we’re all following our own plots. I’ve just been chosen to act as narrator.
A writing persona makes Real Life relationships hard. Those who come into my inner circle have to deal with the fact that there are multiple worlds in my head with people constantly demanding my attention. If I go days without writing, I get irritable and have trouble concentrating. The voices in my head sometimes get too loud for me to ignore. I’m always distracted. When things in life get too difficult I often find myself retreating into a fake world. I don’t party. I don’t socialize a lot outside of my house. I’m a homebody. Yes, I like you and want to be your friend, but I’d rather be here writing than going to that gathering of people you want me to go to. If you can understand that, then we’ll get along fine. Otherwise, I’ll probably be disappointing you a lot.
It sounds lonely, but really, it’s not. I’ve lived through some exciting adventures, albeit in my head. I have quite a few friends, even if they’re not visible to others. I have fallen in love several times and will again someday. In Real Life, I’m quiet, shy, and easily ignored. But in my other lives, I’ve saved millions, I’ve conquered villains, and I’ve lived loudly.
Do I sound insane yet? If you answered no, you’re probably a fellow writer. Because you know exactly what I mean.
I consider myself honored to have this affliction. I’m never bored; I always have something to do. I have a passion for something in life. I have never once woken up and thought, Gee, I don’t feel like writing today. I don’t want to do it anymore. I always want to. Always. Every second of every day. I wouldn’t give up writing for anything.
In one of my favorite movies, Inception, a man looks around a room of sleeping people and asks if they go there every day to sleep. The answer? They go there to be woken up. The dreams they dream have become their reality. Real Life is where I reside. My stories are where I live.
And really, who are you to say otherwise?
So, friends, if I haven’t yet scared you off and you’d like to take an adventure with me, check out my works, and join me at the Brain to Books Cyber Convention, April 6, 7, and 8 on Goodreads and other platforms! I’ll be posting more about it as it gets closer. I look forward to seeing you there! 🙂